D: Why is it that i have to take tests early when i go away? and i bet i'm in alot of asian tourists photos (:

Ohkay, i really dislike the fact that i have to take tests early because i'm going away. I think its because the teachers are jealous maybe? Its so unfairrr D: I think i should just skip the tests (: that works for me.

and i can honestly say i must be in alot of asian tourists photo's as a kid. See, my mum would get yearly passes to places like dreamworld and whenever i went to the zoo or anywhere that attracted tourists, i would have these asians coming up to me like "D:! (insert japanese here) *takes out camera)" because my hair used ot be very long and it's gotten alot darker, so it was very bonde when i was about 3-4. and just above my hips and wringlety. So i'd always have these families coming up to my parents asking if the could get a photo of me and the idea of all these tourists going back to their home-towns and showing their families pictures of me as a baby sounded pretty awesome to me (:

Its such hot weather now D: !! Good thing is i can wear all my summer dresses ;D but still, our uniforms get really hot.

Map is so gay.

x

Coraline tomorow :D

I can't wait, i've wanted to see Coraline for ageeeeeeeeeees

+ i haven't seen my friend Val in foreverrrr so i'm looking foraward to tomorow! (:

I'm dumped at home with my sister who is sick (i don't know why but she's so much nicer when she's sick, i think its because she isn't so hyper (:

AHHH i really wanna see Boys like girls and Nevershoutnever D:! they're touring atm and i absolutely LOVE NEVERSHOUTNEVER and boylikegirls has a new album out and lemme say, they look very hot :) but i'm going away the whole of september........ Syria, Dubai, Singapore and lebanon. I can't wait but i'll miss everyone!

hehe, i'mn in a great mood tbh, and i have a maths test on Monday hehehehe :D

toodle-pip!!
xx.

Wahh its been so longg!! haha sorry (: (Jess our blogs have decreased in regularity xD)

WELL, gosh were do i start? I haven't been on here in ages, and i don't have a legitimate excuse so i won't try and come up with one! (:

Uhm, well, i'm going away in a month (3 weeks now, i think....) The whole of September. GONE, i won't be here and i'm looking forward to going to Syria, Dubai, Lebanon and Singapore but i'm going to miss everyone SO MUCHLY! but coming back will be fun haha.

Hm, i have alot of assignments right now, and i've been procrastinating doing them which sure isn't good for me, but i'm trying i'm trying!! I set aside like.......10 minutes to email some pictures for an english assignment today! ;D (......i know.......)

annnnnnnnd hm, i went to a party yesterday, it was UBERLY FUNTASTICAL! xD Rach's party and it was GOTH THEMED. haha it was so fun. I went as a Victoria Frances style goth, so i had a really elegant top and the little swirl thing on one side of my eye and these long gloves. and my friend Ben let me put make-up on him :) Which was a total disaster because he ended up looking like a girl......so then i put tissues down his top and gave him a wig which he wore for a while hehehehe

So as you can see i'm quite the happy person now (: don't know why i said now, considering i haven't been un-happy in AGES. but now i'm TRULY happy and i'm not bothering myself with anything that will make me un-happy. (studying for example.....T_T) i'll have to make some acceptances on that one :)

I don't know who reads this or if anyone reads it at all but yeah, lifes going great atm and my parents are being nicer, because some times they're real pains in the BUMS. annnnnnnnnnnd uhm yeah, got my report a while ago, that was good, i didn't get heaps of A's but i got half A's so thats not too bad ^_^

I shall try to blog more, promise (:

Picture up the top is Ben and i, Me-the girl looking too happy, Ben- the boy (yes boy) in the corner who looks like an emo dog :D

bye for now, i have er....studying to attend too (haha YEAH RIGHT!)

xx.

Howdyhoo (:

I got back from netball a while ago (:

I have horrible period pains.

Recent picture for you ;D

I have a party tonighttt ^_^ going to be fun.

thats about all i have to say. My blogs have been quite short lately i'm sorryyy (:

Just not much happening, or maybe its that alot is happening....

dernooo (:
xx.

Stayed homee (:

I stayed home today (: Cause i woke up feeling terrible.

Found better pictures of the fringe i'm getting (: Tomorowww!! ;D

Can't wait i really can't xD

xx.

Yayayayayayay

I can't wait i cant wait i cant wait (:

Hair cut on wednesday and i'm getting a fringe like this http://media.photobucket.com/image/hizaki/loves_jrockers/Extra%20pix/hizaki.jpg


Just straightening the fringe of course, i dun wanna straighten the rest of my hairr.

Ahh i can't wait! Photo's for sure xD

gonna go now, i'm so happy.

xx.

I forgot to say i went on holiday

I'm being really slack with my blogging i know, but i'm making up for it now!

Right now, at this very very moment i'm watching Harry Potter 2 (: I went to the Whit Sundays (gah, really annoys me i'm not sure wether i'm spelling it right!!) For 5 days, t'was fun but the whole time i was missing my friends and wanted to be out with them and stuff.

Snorkelling the Great Barrier Reef blowed. I've done it 3 times now, and the last was the worst. The coral was visually dying ):

First day back at school today. I guess it was okay, school-ish really. Not much more i can say about it.

Gonna go now (: Bai baii!!

xx

Yesterday was arguably the best day ever (:

I absolutely love my friends. Love love love (: I had Benny, Mich and Val over for the whole day yesterday. We switched between my house and Mich's and the park. Mummy made cuppy cakes for us and they were yummy (: We played pictionary for a while and talked all day. it was so muchc fun :D

It was a real shame my friend Rach couldn't come too. It would have been even funner, but i'm no complaining. the thing i love about my friends is awkward silences and awkwardness in general just doesn't exist with them. They're all extreamly kind to everyone they meet and i really look up to them i really do. I think i'm really lucky to have the friends i do. They can make me laugh when i think i'm about to cry and everything fades away when we're all together.

Plus i don't feel anywhere near as lonely as i used to feel. I don't care so much that i'm single anymore. I'm like "yeah whatever, if someone loves me they can come to me, i'm happy as i am"
and its one of the best feelings i've had. I feel independent and happy and laid back and just.....

great!

I'm still in my pj's so i'm going to get changed and think about maybe doing something today. and i'm not too bothered about wether or not i do something today. I'm silly happy right now.

and i don't even know if i'm in love or if someone likes me back or if tomorow will be a start of an All time low, for now everythings great and that's what matters. And if everything went downhill, i can just close my eyes and remember times like these and say "i'm lucky to of had memories like that and that's what i'll hold onto"

I'll do just that.

Toodle doo!

x

Boriiiiiiing(:

I've had enough of holidays for today (: I want tomorow NOW. now now nowww:( I can't wait for tomorow, it'll be so much fun!! But as for today......yeah i've completely run out of things to do. Mich has her boyfriend over....or is he still her boyfriend?? I'm not quite sure. I might go over there before he leaves, if she wants me there haha. My arm aches so much! Stupid injections. I got mine yesterday right, and the lady didn't even give me a lollipop! and she had the jar right there and i was just like "Oh i see how it is bitch, i'm too old for a lollipop now, am i? Your too old to be working HA THATS RIGHT I WENT THERE!" but curse my niceness and the fact my mum was sitting next to me otherwise i would of said just that.

Well, i hate to admit it but i'm immensely jealous right now. No doubt Rach is off doing something with Ben. Mich has Val over and i'm just sitting here blogging to maybe no-one at all. I've been feeling so exluded lately. I mean, i have this group of friends and we call each-other the "Quintets" because there's five of us. But they've been meeting up without me, not all of them but 3 of them at a time. and it makes me feel way left out. Not to mention they're all at least one year older than me so i should feel excluded enough....

I love them all though so its all good,I just wish i wasn't so jealous of the fact'i'm all here alone, and they're most definately off with each-other. It's a horrible feeling.

I spent most of today watching t.v., playing sims, and i finished teaching myself Remembering Sunday by All time Low, i'm really proud of myself i can play it all now(:

Wahhh i want it to be tomorow ! Not only will i get to spend the day with miss astrid, we're going shoppinggg(: its been long awaited, because we both need to stock up on bows and cute things we don't need. Plus i'ma get some fingerless gloves, since i don't want to make my own, and a sling over bag from Vivid Wave.

Great now my mummy is gone. I am now completely alone. I know lots of kids spend their holidays like this but i hate it. I hate hate hate being alone and i hate even more the fact that i know my friends are off doing suff without me. Not really intentionally though, i mean i know they knew i wasn't busy they'd call and invite me over and what not, but its a bit too late now isn't it? I'm drifting away from my friend jess.... She's in this group i used to hang out with, but i got really bored of them, and i got sick of being around when i wasn't wanted, so now i just have a bunch of groups i go to and fro. But yeah i really don't want to lose her, she's been with me through a bunch of really hard times, and we've had our fights and i'm not too fond of her best friend but we always got around that, thats why we're so close. I just hope i don't lose her. It's really hard to leave a group you've been with for a while, i still talk to some of the people from the group, but only the ones who wanted me around.

Now, if anyone reading is interested, i have a compliment table. People don't realise that when they use certain words, they completely give away what your on about. there are love words, and then there are the suggestive, hook-up and horny words. First are the....

Love words::

Beautiful
Amazing
Stunning
Georgous
Pretty (now this one is kind of just a basic compliment word, it isn't very serious but thats not always a bad thing in ome cases)

The hook up words::

Sexy
hot
fit
lush
etc

now, the cheap word is...

Cute.

now some girls don't mind that word. But its a childish kind of word, suggesting your like a little girl kind of cute.

So yeah, i jsut thought i'd make that compliment table. Oh, there's also the nicknames:

Baby
Babe
(Theyre very suggestive from a guy, and when some guy calls you baby, its also very posessive)

Hun
Bub
Darling

(they're more preferred by most if not all)

I better go now, my arm is absolutely killing me

Bye bye!!xx

Gotta be quick(:

Mum's kicking me off like right now so the update will have to be uber fast (: I went and spent the day in the city today, got a vaccination. My arm hurts :( It was actually a pretty good day. Holidays are good so far (: Don't know what i'llbe doing tomorow, most likely just spend the day with Mich. Thursday i'm going shopping with Astrid which has been long awaited. It shall be heaps fun.

I wish i could talk longer but i have to go (: More blog tomorow maybe ;D

I love you to death (:

xx.

Did you know??

Did you know that i was a fairy today??
Did you know i'm a vegetarian but apparently i'm un-healthy? (weight wise)
Did you know i can spend half an hour meditating before i need music?? ;D
Did you know i can make 2 minute noodles....in 3 minutes??
Did you know i write my own songs??
Did you know i hate being called baby?
Did you??

Bet you didn't. Because i don't think many people know. Some, i guess.
Explanation to the first - Today was uber fun (: It was the second last day of the semester so all the teacher's are really laid back. Which means WE get away with alot xD I wouldn't push it though, they are still doing reports after all. But yeah, today was just really fun. I was in one of those moods. I talked to everyone and i was always smiling. I wans't high i was just happy. Jeanette had a drama performance and had brought two sets of fairy wings for it and i wore them for half of the day. It was really fun (: I got as many stares as usual so i wasn't bothered at all. We were mansfield fairies, who doesn't want to be a fairy? a fairy with purple fluffy wings i might add :D

Now, i don't know about everyone else but i dont like it when people deny things. I see denial as lying. and when someone lies to me, i see it like i'm not worth the truth. Today for example. I know this guy in my music class likes me. He jumps at any opportunity to talk to me. He's a nice enough guy, nothing special. So i was walking out of music talking to him and he said "Your shorter than i thought you were." and i went up on my tippy toes and said "Oh, so you think about me now??" he didn't answer. If he had the guts to say straight out yes. I might've given him a little credit. Same with guys who like you but don't tell you so. That really bugs me. Admiration from far away. That is the worst. I mean, its great for self esteem and sure, i can't deny i like it when I found out some guy or girl for that matter, likes me. But god its annoying! They just STARE. All the time. Sometimes they talk to me but they just STARE at me when i talk to them. I try to ignore it most of the time, but sometimes it makes me feel like there's a planet on the side of my face or something. Ugh.

Plus i'm a straight-forward, say what you think kind of person. I won't say something if it''s mean or un-necessary, but i say what i think when i want to. I don't like it when people aren't straight up with me too. The truth is always better than i lie. Even if it does hurt. I mean, lies do so much more damage, everyone knows that. In the long run, the truth always ends up being a better option. But yeah of course, if its something serious, i'd follow my brain. Everyone would. Or at least i hope. Not the FBI, they're just sluts. The FBI's are the Fashion Before Intellects (: I nicknamed the idiots in my grade with no thought for anything else but sex, clothes and make-up that. I think it fits.

Although great thing about my school is we don't really have the set groups. We have the self-defined. Of course, we have a slut group. yes, the asians stick together most of the time. and the jocks, naturally, hang out with eachother. But there's groups of kids that are all really different who hang out together, and don't have names for their groups. Thats the one thing i love about my school. Uniqueness is accepted. If people don't accept you then they aren't worth changing for. Can you beleive it took me 13 years to work that out? thats, what.....365 times 13. 4745 days of being alive. Well not ecxactly. but you get the point. It took me so much to work out who i was and what i wanted. I still don't know what i want even now. Meaning: I'm not quite sure what i wanna do when i grow up. I have lots of options. My parents don't realise i'm just trying to keep all my options open and enjoy what i'm doing now. I put the effort in, and hopefully it'll pay off years from now. Hopefully.

Well, speaking of putting the effort in, i need to do 5 minutes of math. My life is so hard isn't it? No. Not compared to some people i know. Poor buggers. Anyway, pip pip! Cheerio! Toodle-ooo.
x.

Howdy do (: Haven't blogged in a while, apoligies to anyone who reads this =D

Well, i have a whole list of excuses for not blogging but i think you can kind of guess.

1. Way to many exams for anyone's liking but i mean lets be honest, who likes exams??
2. So many assignments i think i could make 50 paper aeroplanes with them and fly them halfway to the moon, but there's so much stuff in the assignments they'd fall down!!
3. There is no three, but the other 2 things seemed a bit lonely (:

I didn't do much today, yeah yeah i know its saturday, yeah yeah i know i'm a 13 year old girl with a good amount of friends but.....I had netballllllllllll

and we lost, because hardly anyone in my team shows up, and we always have to get subs and its just not worth it anymore): I used to enjoy netball but not anymore. I guess its the same with alot of things, they change and you grow to hate what you used to love.

and I was going to check out this Vintage shop i found on thursday this morning, but my mum didn't end up taking me because she had an operation on thursday on her back, just a little thingy cut out but yeah, it hurt so she said she'd take me on the holidays. Which i don't mind so much. There was also a slight chance i was going to meet up with my friend ben there, so we could demolish it together (: Which would of been heaps fun for sure.

upside of today is that i've put alot of my song idea's down on paper and some of them sound pretty good. I also got some frawing done after netball and i got lichee juice! and and dark chocolate with orange in it! and (waitt for ittttt).......PRAWN CRACKERS! I've been craving them all week along with cheesecake and chocolate coins so yeah, happy Lana i am ;D

and also a very confused and yeah jsut really confused Lana. I'm not sure who to go about this.........issue, i'm not even sure whether it's an issue. and i can't talk about it on here for obvious reasons. Its just a bit hard keeping to myself sometimes. But it's a habit of mine, one i like to be honest, but it has it's moments. People have discovered that.

I make them GOOD GIRLS GO BAD.
I make them good girls go, the good girls go
BAD!!

Cobra starship is awesome for sures (:

So yeah, my brain just has alot to handle at the moment, and sadly, i don't think it can take it all right now. One more week and i'll be on holidays, and my dad will still be at work on weekdays which means my mum, brother, sister and I will pretty much be able to do whatever we want. its not that my dad doesn't let us do things, he's just pretty protective of me when it comes to going places and who i'm with. I know its because he cares. but yeah, party next week. Plus my brother, sister and dad are going skiing for 5 days during the holidays (I'm not going just because, i don't really enjoy skiing, i would rather stay at home with mummy dearest and do whatever i like!!) So yeah holidays will be fun. And it'll give me a chance to take a break from all this WORK! which means i won't be so stressed and i won't have so much packed into my brain. i'm not dumb, i just don't like all these thoughts running through my head.

Well my dad's home which means i'll be having dinner, I promise i'll be blogging a bit more (: Promise.

But a smile on your dile, i'll see you in a little while!
Goodbye for today! I'll see you again :D
x.

Hmphh.......

I'm numbish right now. I played netball today. I don't like netball(: I have absolutely nothing against people who play it and i see how they like it. But personally......i hate it :) It gets me up before 10 oclock on a saturday! THATS FRICKEN SUICIDE!!!

and uhm yeah, i didn't get back till about 3 and then i ran over to Michy's to film a ditsy video xD You can find it on utube called "Ditsy0001". It is extreamely random.

I also made.....*Duh duh duh duhDUNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* NERD GLASSES *scream from some random lady reading over my shoulder. (:

They're big and nerdy and ohmygosh BLACK! and haha, they have no lenses ;D

My father is coming home in about 5 minutes.....yippee-yi-yay. >_> So i better go.....

Bye!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!
!!!!!!! (:

x.

This is me not doing my maths revision

I haves a maths test tomorow :( I really hate maths, like really really really times 8MILLION don't like maths. Its not all that bad though, i mean i sit here and NOT do my maths revision, do it for about 15 minutes and then get japanese takeaway for dinners! See, my dad is out until saturday, which means PARTAYYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAAYYYYH (haha, why did i put a H on the end of partayayayayayaya? Because i can thats why, plus that H button, my god does it look inviting!!)

I haven't blogged in a while, nothing new to say really. I mean i can always talk about garbage but whats the fun in that when i can be conguring up little evil plans with my friend Jeanette? I had H.p.e today with that darling and my friend Jess. It was so cold we went round and hugged everyone we knew, and everyone we didn't know too. Haha basically just anyone within a 50 metre radius. I say 50 because when its that cold, hun, i don't mind running 50 metres for warmth. I'm always in the sped team for phys ed. It doesn't bother me at all because i know i can do sport if i bothered to morph some abs and some muscley man legs, but tbh, why would i spend an hour of my time running around, completely exhasting myself before Com tech ( and beleive me, you need ALL the energy you have in com tech to stay awake x] ) when i can just run around like a nutter on nico pens with my friends? I see that as a fun way of wasting my time =D

I decided to space myself from my group. They really are a bore, and i'm not joking at all. Jess (Different one to the one i ran around with in h.p.e) is quite literally the only person there i'm close too, all the other people there are guys apart from Caitlin, long story short, i think she's a twat and she thinks i'm an emo. Makes sense :) and the guys there, there's about 9 of them? They're SO IMMATURE! Two of them are okay, but the rest of them are patheticly immature! and i'm not immature. Sped - yes. Werid - of course. In-conveniently high at most times of the day - yes. But i'm not immature! so i spent first break on the grass area with 4 of my lovely friends from a different group, and second break with a different bunch of people i haven't been with in a while.

Thing about me is, and not many people can do this without feeling out of place, i can wander from about 5 different groups without feeling like i don't belong. The stupid thing is, i was spending time with a group I feel completely out of place with, and i'm not quite sure why i was doing this but i was walking towards where i normally sit and kind of just turned around and went "Ok so who do i feel like being with right now?" I missed Jess today though :( (The one in the group that isn't mine anymore (: )

I had another person comment on my eyes today. Haha well 5 actually. People always do it. They say something about how blue my eyes are, or how big they are. I don't see it (haha with my apparently big blue shining eyes). Maybe its just because i've been seeing myself in the mirror more than once everyday for 13 years, but i just can't comprehend why people find me eyes and my hair such a big deal! My hair, sometimes it gets beyond a joke. 'Specially when i'm in a bad mood and some random asks me whether my hair is natural. I'm used to it now. Its like natural reflex to go "Yeah it is *fake smile*" or "haha thanks (:" I think people with boring hair are lucky sometimes, not boring but you know, straight? and just the normal layeres and side fringe, they don't get as much hassle from society in general. Its not a bad thing its just a bit too much, 'especials when i'm moody haha (:

I'm really pale today. Death pale. Death warmed up with a tiny pink bow (: Thats me! Whenevers i get my period, or i'm a bit low on sleep, i get really really pale and it freaks my mum out because she thinks i don't get enough iron, so i have foundation on today >_< I don't like it, its annoying when its un-necessary, because i'm one of those kids who doesn't get many pimples (: Yay me! although i do have this one i think is waiting to happen on the side of my cheeck.......but then again my hair covers it ehehehehehehehehehehe. So yeah, foundation face! Wooooo!

It's so weird being home alone on a Thursday afternoon! its nearly dark, which is odd for me because normally its still light around now, but winter is clearly setting in. Cause as i told you, my dad isn't here and my mum took my brother and my sister to garbo to shop for shoes. She tried to get me to come, she said we'd go to the library after and then have dinner there, which was like saying "Hey Lana, want to walk around the shops for 3 hours and then be rushed to chose books and get sushi stuck in your braces?" NO THANKYOU.

I better go try and get some of those stupid revision revised.....baii baii!!
xx.
(:

A wintery sky and a broken streetlight.

I went bowling today (: It was fun. Apart from the fact i couldn't shake the feeling i'm a bit too deep to get out now.....damn....maybe it isn't a bad thing :S

I'm really bored and i'm not quite sure how to feel about things right now. I'm too confused and i dont know, i dont knoww!

I dont want to think about it it's kind of hard though but....

Iwon'tthinkaboutit
Iwon'tthinkaboutit
Iwon'tthinkaboutit
Iwon'tthinkaboutit

Shit, who am i kidding? I'm going to go before i waste more of my time talking about something i obviously can't get out of my head.

Weel its saturday and i'm bored outta my brain!

But i have this stupid smile i can't seem to wipe off my face (: Argh, i'm getting that feeling again uhuhuhuhhh:( but its so much different. Its not that silly falling feeling it's like. I can't explain it its too hard. I don't even care where its going i'm just happy.

I found a whole bunch of great songs today (: The power of ootube xD Wahh i think i'm falling in love ahhhhhhh:( I don't want to but...

He just........oh god haha crap i really am falling.......ahhhshet(:

I dunwannathinkaboutit!

I'm really bored, i'm all home along because my brother has a soccer carnival and mum took him and my sister is at a friends ughh.

ahh dad's home bye!!

Before i get carried away with everything i can do on the computer i'll blog!!

Haha yesterday i did a terrible thing. I opened up the blog thing and had it sitting on the new post page until i had to get off. And i'm determined to actually post today. I have lots to blab on about :) Well winters finally set in which means cute skirts, knee highs and scarfs! WOOO! I'm wearing a scarf now actually (: Those things don't do much but they're so cute xD

The other day i was talking to my friend about how yesterday this girl in grade 12 who i have no clue who she is touched my hair and walked off as i turned around and i heard he friend go "Do you even know her??" and she replied "No, but i love her hair i just had to touch it!!" Now i don't know about your opinion on things like this but i absolutely hate it when people touch my hair. Expecially when they don't ask. I mean, yes it is very curly but SERIOUSLY!! I alwyas get the "Is your hair naturally that curly!?" questions and when i was little, i had really blonde hair, and it was long too, so it'd go into these really tight wringlets and whenever we went somehwhere with tourists they'd get pictures with me. Expecially the asians cos i mean, they have straight black hair and mine was really light blonda long and curly. The idea of turning up in people's photo's as a three year old when they went ot australia makes me laugh (:

and my friend said how i must despise meeting new people because of the amount of inquiries i get on my hair. I'm used to it but i can't stand it when people touch my hair without asking. Thats pretty much assault to me (:

Well, i have to go and i admit, yes, i did get carried away on picnik but its not my fault they have the cutest little cartoon things!! haha dinner now. BYe!!!!

Wow, i'm nearly normal

I spent this afternoon doing such teenage things. I.....(omg get ready......).........Drew a picture. (:

It's just another one of my anime people xD I haven't drawn in a while and i guess one of my friends kind of inspired me to get back into it again when i saw his art book. Amazing.

I spent the weekend doing things with friends. I slept over Michy's house and went to my friend Rach's where we met up with our friend Ben and yeah.

Not too much information about that because i don't know who reads this (:

I'm going to go because i have to do so much stuff on the compy and i'll never get it done if i blog for long.

Look at the piccy (:

xx

Hmmmmm whatadisaster

Haha my life in general really. Yesterday was ok i guess. The music concert actually ended on time, i was so shocked i nearly fell asleep (nearly, i was so tired, the caffine was the only thing keeping my eyes slightly open). I've reallyyyyy had it with over-dramatic friends. One of my friends was dumped by a guy like.....oh i don't know two weeks ago? I can't keep track of time everything is the same to me. So anyway, she's (Oh i'm a good friend but i can't deny the truth and she has been!) she's been holding onto the guy for dear life. And last night she was just. Well. I don't know but about 3 performances from the end of the concert she walked off saying she didn't want to hear the string orchestra. So i just sat there because i really wasn't in the mood for the breakdown i knew was coming. She turns and looks at me and gives me that "Why aren't you following me can't you see i'm a wreck?" look, so i get up, i mean what else am i meant to do??

She goes down to where we have all our music lessons and sits outise the door in the alleyway and looks up at me and i'm just thinking "Oh for god's sake seriously? Am i really the kind of person you want to moan to? I'm horrible with advice on things i purposely stay away from" Nevertheless i sit down and yawn and try to keep my eyes open while she sighs and goes ON and ON! about how she's such a mess and how she knows she shouldn't be hanging around him but she can't not and how theres this other guy she likes and ohmygosh it was like 50 episodes of the hills bullshit in 20 minutes. By the time she finished i had absolutely nothing to say because not in a million years would i get myself into that kind of position let alone talk to my friends about it. But then again we're different people.

I know she's going through a hard time and people in general go through hard times, but everyone can control themselves and she definately isn't an excpetion. Not to mention she's been hitting on me and she knows for a fact i'm straight. AND she knows it annoys me when she says things that are suggestive. UGH! I really just want to tell her she's making a drama out of something that heaps of other girls go through all the time but i know i'll just get another lecture and i'm sick of hearing about it.

I love my friends dearly but sometimes they really just need to forget about things. Forgive forget and bloody shut up!

Ok, i have to go now, netball YUCK. I have my hair up in a pony tail on the side and it looks really sporty if i say so myself. I realyl have to go mum is yelling ughhh

Bye!!!xxx

Eh

I tried out for the musical today. They made me sing happy birthday and act out this thing on a peice of paper. I guess i did ok, its funny though, i had so many people coming up to me saying how good i would be if i got a lead in the musical.....but none of them have heard me sing. I guess they mean the acting part because i'm such a drama queen.

I have my hugeeeegewugey concert tomorow, because it was raining last week when we were meant ot have ONE of the two concerts. So now we have a huge one tomorow, which, and i quote my friend Rach on this "Sucks epically hairy balls" xD

Mum's out watching my brothers soccer game so dad's going to come home and be stuck with my sister and I. It's nights like this I wish.......

I'm not even going to finish that.

Bleh. I feel sad. I think its because of my period. Haha yeah, i'm the kind of person who'll say stuff like that, not to my guy friends cause i know it freaks them out but i'm all for the open-girl-friends!! Whenever i get my period i always go deathly pale and it worries my mum to shreads. See, i'm a vegetarian and my family is convinced I don't get enough iron which i don't beleive because i'm always full of energy (except early in the mornings but i mean who is!?) and yeah, so i always end up having to cover my face in foundation for 5 days OR just go round looking like death warmed up. =D It gets annoying though because my skin has a mind of its own and sometimes i'll be way pale and other days i'll come to think i have a tan, that thought end up leaving as fast as it comes when the next day i wake up pale again haha.


Period depression is the worst (:

haha i'm listening to Taion which doesnt really help. Whenever i listen to that song i cringe.

Like just then haha.

i g2g now bye!!

WOOO!

Fun run was awesome (: I wandered around with all my different groups of friends and Hello Kitty is on like.....EVERYONE"S camera hehe. I can't talk for long because i'm not meant to be on and i'm getting video's from utube too! I managed to find a programme that downloads utube video's straigh as mp4 files and its really fast.. I'll post the link up sometime when i have more time xD So thats it for now. Today was really fun and my ears that i made actually stayed on. ;D BYE!!

I'm kind of nothing feeling today

My dreams. Thats what i want to talk about for a while today. See, i've only been able to remember about 3 of them. All the others i've had i just can't remember. and now i can remember lots. Nearly every one i have, right from the time i wake up. and their so vivid, and all on the same subject which will stay un-known to everyone. No, not wet dreams i'm not a horny person. Just personal ones. (: So yeah, that was really weird for me, because i'm not sure what triggered the sudden memory of all my dreams.

I love my myspace now, its awesome. haha well, no not really but i managed to customise it a bit to match me more (: Check it out xDhttp://www.myspace.com/452935963

The song isn't very well known but i absolutely adore her voice. and the lyrics! its an amazing song. Real shame i can't download it >.<"

Its really amazing how people can just put things in the back of their heads and never speak of them again. Not long ago i had a little freak out about something with my friend, then one day we just decided to give up trying to fight it and leave it at a conclusion that doesn't answer and will never satisfy, the question placed. I guess thats how the world works. People have to be good at keeping things in the dark. Too good sometimes. That's a thing about me most people might not realise. I'm great at working people out. Exactly what they're about. Give me about 5 minutes and i'll know who you are. I've kind of just grown accustomed to watching people's body language, how they talk, the way they carry themselves. It all adds up to who they are. And that's why some people don't like me. To be completely honest, i don't think i'd like me either if i was the person being worked out. People love mystery. Others not knowing what they're about or what they're thinking. But because i can see through that most of the time, they tend to not like it. At all. But there is. Well, one person who's different to that. I still can't figure out everything about him. I mean, we're like twins and i mean that in a literal sense, i can tell what he'll say before he says it because its what i'd say if i were in his position. But, its weird, he still surprises me and alot of the time i can't work out what he'd really meaning when he says something that isn't direct. I've given away too much already ugh.

Fun Run is tomorow. i hope it isn't cancelled. It'll be heaps fun. I'm definately going as Hello Kitty. A more Me version though. Less pink more white and black. I'll mix the pink in. Whiskers, and a nose painted on with clip on white ears and a huge pink bow. It'll be very......diferent haha.

The names we very them as they may change
But the game, the game it stays the same
We love, we want to love the ones we will learnt to hate.
Well, maybe someday i'll deserve something more.
x3 -Gabrielle Aplin.

I did nothing yesterday. For the first time in my life i stayed in my Pj's the WHOLE DAY. a picture for the taking haha. I dont really like sundays normally. My dad is there. its the only day i really see him and my Father and I have a very complicated and yeah. just a weird relationship. but that sunday was fun (:


Ok, i'm going to go now, mum is yellinggg. I'll upload the picture tomorow then >_< Along with a whole heap from fun run!! If it isn't cancelled haha, I will be sooo bummed if it gets cancelleddd.

Bye! and remember, its not always good to try and be something your not because there are people who can see through you (:

xx.

The picture says it all

I spent the whole day in my pj's finishing off my book, drinking coffee, on the computer and watching tv. It was actually a huge change for me and it was nice to have a slob day. I'll come to school tomorow.......refreshed in a way. and also alot more annoyed. I had absolutely nothing planned for the day so i didn't see why i couldn't sleep in till 10 and laze round (: Its a very self-satisfying thing. Expecially the fact my parents let me walk round in my Pj's all day =D



Shnoopie (:



I'm not quite sure what else to say in this blog. Oh! A huge group of my friends are friends with this one girl in grade 10 and i only started talking to her yesterday when i had her bebo, myspace AND msn and turns out we have like, the same family friends and stuff its really funny that we haven't talked before.xx

Rain oh glorios rain!

Ah, the weather is beautiful today. Netball was cancelled. Shame i spent the whole day doing my english assignment. Horrid horrid due dates. I had Naplan and all this stuff happening and my english teacher (who is only in her twenty's and she's actually a pretty cool kid.) Decided to not give us an extension. Gah. I'm just so glad i've gotten it out of the way. It took forever though. Luckily my brother who is a year older than me, he was in the Tic programme too (Tic program is where you do 80 percent of your work on computers, its really good and alot of my friends do it and such a wide variety of kids do it it's not classified nerdy, plus we get to go on email and stuff.) So my brother has had some of the teachers i have had and he's done all the assignments and tests i have to do, i'm so grateful i have a brother like him, he helps me alot with my work. I'm pretty sure without him and my mother, i'd flunk everything.

I might go and see if my neighbour Michelle is home. She's a year older than me but we're realyl close, she goes to my school and we're friends with a bunch of the same people. Not to mention we're both Quints (long story). xD

This week i've picked up 4 girls. FOUR. and i'm straight! I dont flirt with girls or anything! I'm a nice person sure, but four? I'm not a homophobic but it does kind of freak me out. I was talking to a friend about it and she said maybe its because i'm different. Like it is true that girls are always trying to be unique. and no doubt about it i have unique down-pat. It still kind of bothers me though. Expecially when its girls i'm friends with. I know they wouldn't make a move on me but the thought is a bit awkward for me and i try really hard not to be rude when it happens but its scary.



I'ma head off now, see if Michy's home, if not i'll probably watch a movie orrr......read manga :)

I'm such a nerd +_+

Goodbye for today! I'll see you again!(8).xx

I'm so glad its thursday

I'd be even happier if it was friday but i'm not complaining. This week has been so uberly boring it isn't funny. Like i'm not even going to laugh at how boring it has been. I've calmed down a bit since my last blog and i've kind of accepted that some things i can't change, no matter how hard i try or how much i want to. Nevershoutneverhas been on repeat lately. His music is so cute and up-beat it kind of numbs the boringness :) Does that make sense? eh i dont really care if it does. Mum's yelling at me to come have dinner. Nothing has really happened lately so there isn't really much to say =D

bye byexx

YAY!

Shopping is so FUN! Eeehehehehehehee. I didn't even end up going to dfo because it was raining and the traffic was going to be ridiculously slow. I think my mum was like......drunk or something because she got me everything i asked for. Like EVERYTHING. We walked past Rebel and i was like "Oh, i need new Converse" and she was just like "ohkay!" I had to refrain from dropping my jaw. I'm really flaberghasted at the moment so i'm not going to blog long.

I just found out something which has really. I dont know i'm not quite sure how to put it. Its really sad :( and i can't beleive i didn't know. I just......it's kind of haunting me now and i feel really guilty. I can't change it, its been like this for 15 years, i just somehow, i feel guilty it didn't happen to me. Why did it have to happen to him, you know? It must be so horrible, and he can't change it.

i'm gonna head off now. bye.x

Why, i almost wish i didn't have to go shopping.

Almost. I'm missing out on going to the city with Quintsss :( (Long story short, a group of 5 very different kids ^_^ because i have to go to DFO. Because i want converse :) and and and lots of clothes and and and boots and and yeah well alot of things actually. I had fanfare today so i missed out on half of school. I know, only half it was so annoying going back to class expecially considering the fact i had to go back to GRAPHICS! (Which jsut to clear up i did NOT take by my own free will, my parents made me, dad's an engineer you know how it goes). The choir i'm in got GOLD! WOOO!! and only three of our choirs got gold (We have alot of choirs) and McGregor which came to our school, i'm not quite sure why they came to ours but yeah, they performed here too. They only got one gold :) and i love the girls uniform! I could make it look so cool! The girls wear it kind of correctly but if i went there i'd make it like......Knee-high white socks with converses and tartan skirt just above the knees, loose tie (Notice how i said loose) and gloves. Never forget the gloves.

I think gloves are great. I'm a glove and bow freak. Oh and socks! I love knee-highs i think they're awesome :) and they're great for skirts, expecially if your like me and don't like showing lots of skin. Stockings are great too. and Skinny's. Oh i'm such a fashion obsessist xD Its so fun!!!

At the bottom of the page i'm leaving a lovely picture of me strangling my brother (As i do) This picture was for entertainment purposes only and no Boofheads where harmed in the making.

I fell asleep to October by Evanescence last night. I love that song.

Here's a list of quotes from today that i found extra interesting/cool or just good.

"They call me crazy...........then i eat them."

"I love you!!!"

"Start asking questions!"

"It works on my cat"

"I'll be the evil one"

"Just because it looks scary doesn't mean its any different"

"Jerimiah was a bullfrog"

"You can't make up your own rules"

"I'm learning more about you you know"

"She's like Lilly Allen..........without the slutiness.....wait nevermind."

"You need to let it go".

They're good aye?

WEl anyways i'm off. BYE!

Wow!

I'm pretty flaberghasted that so many people are following my blog! I just made one because was really bored but turns out some people are actually reading what i write! Now i'll have to be a bit more careful of names....... :) Last night wasn't actually that bad beleive it or not. I had 6 cups of coffee though, so i think thats what kept me awake. But still, i was expecting it to be torture. My brother came along too, and we dumped my sister at a friends and yeah. After the game we went to a friends party and didn't get back till about 2:30. It was a nice change instead of just sitting at home on the computer,which don't get me wrong, is fun and all, but it was a nice change, i'll never do it again though! The amount of Jocks there was riciculous and when i was walking in i got a couple of nods from some of them. *Shivers* I went in my London tee-shirt.......i hope people didn't actually think I beleived I was going for London haha. I'm currently installing.......

WEBCAM! OMG! Haha my dad got one ages ago (My father is so out-of-it when it comes to technology, expecially computers, see he wanted one so he could talk to his clients from home, which isn't very smart considering he'd need and msn account and he's never at home on the computer anyway. But hey! I'm not complaining!) I might even start a utube blog thingo of random stuff when i get bored :) If i do i hope whoever is reading this follows me with my utube one too! I'll be the new fred........Yeah yeah i know i'm a girl, but i can dream! Woo :) Vampire Missa =D

I got really funny looks from my family members when i walked downstairs today. I have my hair in piggy tails. And its surprise i'm pulling it off. As i told you before, i'm growing my hair, so i'm trying some new hairstyles. And i just completely hypicrited myself just then because i went and put my hair down :)

Webcam is so fricken awesome!! Now i can look at myself when i'm on the computer!! Lol, no thats not what i'll use it for............*Raises Eye-brows* =D and again, thats just my attempt at humour :)

I've been looking for a way out
Something that isn't so cruel.
Well, i'm a little tired
you see, i'm miserable.
I think your missing out.
I think your gunning it down.
You've passed the point of
owning up to your words
there's no getting it by us now.
but if its ok by you...........


I love cartel. Cartel and D have been my playlist for the weekend. Weird mix huh? I'm gonna go play around with this webcam! =D (a.k.a wait till msn downloads again and see if there's anyone worth talking to.) Bye!! and thankyou so much for following me on blogspot! Your awesome! ;D


p.s My sister just got stung by something :S And i'm not quite sure what. I think its a wasp, but she's such a wuss its hard to tell how bad it is. Hope she's ok.

x.

Haha i think i've lost my mind....

I am going to........the footy! Bahaha, i know, i think my mum spiked my coffee this morning :) I have a good excuse for attending tonights game though!! My dad always gone and asked my bro to come and my dad is also bringing a client, so basically i'm going to sit there and pretend to understand why old men are running around in short shorts with a soccer ball. Its such a pointless game. I mean......WOOOO!!..........FOOTBALL!! You know i don't even know who is playing. Haha this will be interesting......... 66 year old men are looking at my tagged how pedi :) DELETING IT. BYEBYE!!!

Booo!

Hmmm. The theme for fun run is cartoon and 80's ! Woooo!! I'm so going to go as Hello Kitty! xD Or some random kids tv show thing with Pia. Either way i'll look outrageously me-like.....as always =D GAHHH!!! Msn is being so retardeddd!! Now i have to download it.....again. UGH! I might get my hip peirced on sunday. I know what your thinking. Ew.....hip. I'm fridgeting out though, because it'll really hurt and i'll have to go into the city with my friend which is a bit of a hassle when I won't be telling my mum i'm going to the city and i'll have to hide it. It's so much hassle for a pericing i can get when i'm 16 or something anyway. Plus i'm not all that sure about it anymore, i mean, it might get infected, and do i really want to pay 50 bucks for someone to stick metal through my hip?? msn is taking so long to download this is ridiculous!!

Ahaha, i went up to Domonic at my school. (The one who looks like Asagi) and i asked him if he knew who Asagi was and he said no :( So i told him to look it up and hopefully by monday he'll be aware of how Asagi-ish he is. Without the make-up and awesome clothes though ^_^ I wonder how i'll pull Hello Kitty off though.......hmmm.......I guess I can get a light pink bow and a light pink dress but its just the ears! I can draw on some whiskers and do my make-up all cute and Kitty-ish, i'm just pretty sure that there isn't a shop i can get Hello Kitty ears from. I wonder if they actually exist, i'm so not making some, they'd be really icky. Haha i'm actually looking them up now. Some of the home-made ones are really gay and there's absolutely no actual "Hello Kitty" ears, shame. But i just found a really good pair, they're clip on on either side, which is alot better than those icky head band ones. and the bow is attached aww! I might actually pull Hello Kitty off! Who knew!

Bleh, dad's home. Dinner. BYE!

LAWLAWLAWL

Hahahaha i just had to post a blog to laugh at the previous one, i need a hobby.

Haha i have nothing interesting to say today :)

Today i finished Naplan!! yayy......ugh, i'm so so so i don't even know how to put how i feel into words, thats how i feel :) Nothing kind of. Another one of my friends is hurt by a a guy, by a relationship. Thats why i get scared, after a scarring from a stupid relationship and now i just, don't want to go through it :S No, i'm not all "Ï don;t want love its not for me" i just don't want to be like how i was before, and i've seen all the side effects of heartbreak and its pretty bad. She's recounting what happened now. It's really, i dont know its just. I don't want ot have to go through all of that. I want to just find the guy i'm meant to be with and skip all the shit i'll have to go through to find him. But i've found i hold back myself now, most don't even know me. Bleh, i'm really worried about her :S I wish i could give hugs over msn, stupid stupid messenger.

A less depressing topic perhaps? I'm growing my hairr! and its taking so longggg, but it'll look great when i finally get it the length i want, because its so curly it'll be like how i had it when i was younger. I had a little side fringe that amazingly was straight! It curved out a bit at the end, but i think it looked better like that. and i had my hair down to the end of my ribs, which is a ridiculous length when your young and small and have huge wringlety locks of hair. It'd go into wringlets at the bottom and it was just really cute. But then i got it cut because it was too much to handle and i had it mid-length for a while and THEN i got it cut to where i have it now, which suits me alot more than mid-length, because i find with me, i look alot different with different hair styles. Some make me look completely different its pretty weird, and i find some other people have hair that looks the same no matter what they do with it. So yeah, i find it'll take ages to grow though, because its so darn CURLY! Straight hair doesn't suit me :) I've been asked so many times weather i've straightened my hair and i have. I wanted a straightener once upon a time. But it just looked really boring on me, not to mention it didn't curve round my face like my curls do, it just went straight down, it looked terrible. Some people look great with straight hair but i'm just not one of them :) Which isn't such a bad thing, considering all the people who want to "steal" my hair. and my eyes. Oh god, i'm going ot turn out like a hairless blind old lady! With an interesting in crocheing and geography teachers! Ahhh!!!

Well, thats better, i'm not so caught up in my friends unfortunatism now :)

I can really relate to one of Chase Coy's songs. Most of them are a loud of bullshit, him singing about some girl and blah blah blah, theres one song he has called Coming Clean. and one line freaks me out at how much it was pretty much written for me. It goes "I'm so lonely, surrounded by people that know me but don't know a thing". Haha i listened to it in english when i was doing my darn poetry assignment which i'm not getting enought time to do, and i was like oh wow. Crap! I might use Evanescence - Missing for my assignment xD because its about death and loss and stuff, and i have to annalyse 3 poems and do a powerpoint about them. And missing is a really sad song about loss. I love that song. Because she said it has to relate to the poems or the discourse i was like aww man! but still, its surprising how many songs about loss i have considering how cheery i am.

I'm way contradicting myself when i said i have nothing interesting to say. That was a lie, a half one. I have stuff to say, but its all a load of garbage! =D Naplan is so boring, i have this guy who's in my band who sits diagonally infront of me and he finished 15 minutes early and just stares at me. I wanted to give him the finger but my principal walked past >_<" !! He really scares me and he's part of the reason i didn't go to band this morning.......that and the fact that "My braces hurt......>.>" He tries to talk to me while we're playing and even the teacher sympathises my position!! She let me move, but now he turns around and talks to me. I don't think he's caught the drift.

I hate sympathy. Some people like it when people can empathise how they feel and stuff but not me. It always makes me feel worse than i already do. It points out how badly off i am when someone sympathises to me about something. It just makes me mad. I'm not the kind of person who is all about independence, i rely on people alot more than they know sometimes, but i just don't like it when people talk to me like i'm a 6 year old who's lost her favourite teddy.Cartel has such a great voice, whenever i listen to his songs i feel like writing a huge letter to a fansite about him about how great his music is :) Same with Chris Ingle from Never Shout Never. He's so hot too hehe.

Grr, the guy in my h.p.e class who looks like Asagi wasn't here today so i couldn't ask him if he's aware he looks like a clone of Asagi that was shoved into a preservation device? Shame he isn't very talkative. and he's one of those kids who sticks to his friends, and his nationality for that matter. Big shame. He seems like a nice kid. I love embarassing him, i'll see him somewhere and yell out his name with a big grin on my face and smile and he just gives me a small smile and a nod of the head. Eh, i won't give up, i never give up on trying to get to know someone. It tends to either get me what i want, or i fail epically and they walk faster when i try to talk to them.

I'm a bit of a "make friends with anyone" kind of person. If they aren't a bitch to me or if they aren't obviously a douche then i just introduce myself to them and yeah. Camp was funneh, i met at least 30 people in the same kind of way. I was high, they were there, i said Hi and they remembered me. There WAS those two guys who sat opposite the table of people i sat with and gave me looks, so i got some of my friends to give them looks back. Now we're good friends haha. It was all just messing around but it got pretty halarious. One night i was sitting on my own in the hall on with my legs across a bunch of chairs and a pillow (the talent show was going to happen in about 10 minutes) an a bunch of my friends had gone to the toilet, and they came and sat next to me and started moving closer to me and stuff, so i shoved my pillow in-between the little space left between us and walked off :) I got them back when we had a snack before dinner. I ended up being quite good friends with some of the kids i met at camp actually. I sat with them on the way back from camp on the bus and stuff, snuck into their cabin at like 3 in the morning with some friends. Fun stuff haha. I think this is the biggest blog i've done so far! WOOOO for me!!! ;DDDDD

I'm gonna head off now, i can't think of anything else to rant about at the moment. I'm sure i'll be on tomorow with a whole other heap of rubbish to go on about !!! Bye for now!! and remember, i love you :) (whoever you is hahaha) x3

This is the new shit.....

Is stuck in my head and its really annoying! Yes, its a great Marilyn Manson song, but i can't sing along to it and its stuck in my headddd. Oh, my awesome friend jess made the Lana sign on the top of my blog!! She had one on hers and i was going mental over how cool i thought it was so she made one for me! Isn't is awesome!!!!!? I think its awesome. Thanks Jess!!!! I'm not going to netball......AGAIN. I always find some reason not to go. Today its because i have a huge bruise on my leg and it kills when i walk and not to mention i've been walking to and from school and stuff today so it really hurts :( Tifanny and Co are copying me! I have this key i always wear, because i'm such a nice person i took a picture of it for you. Well anyway, i always get comments on it and why i wear it and yeah. Tiffany and Co brought out a new line of silver and gold Keys. and i think thats really funny considering i've been wearing my key for..... about 7 months i think. Ugh, Mayday Parade are a great band but they have such depressing songs! Eeep. Mum's home from taking my sister to netball and not me :) I actually quite like Taylor Swift. Not Love Story, i can't stand that song, but some of her other ones are really good and i can play the piano parts really easily ;D I'm so tired. BYE!!

That was a nothing day:)

I went to school and nearly died from sleep deprivation and yeah, i dont really have anything to say. I played trivial persuit and i won because of the Sex Pistols. I'm so smart :D I surprised my mum because she didn't know i knew all this stuff. Ugh! I'm trying to teach myself Cassis on the piano for my music assessment and its pretty hard to play by ear. I can get all the chords but it doesn't sound right, i dont think its easy to pick up the change in tone, but i can't work out which note is meant to squeese in when i play one of the chords. Apart form that i'm pretty happy with what i've gotten so far considering i only taught myself it for half an hour. Aha, Rammstein is very cool hehe. Long story. I'm gonna head off now. BYE! xx

Camp was interesting......

Well, I just got back from camp. No, thats a lie, i got back at 5:30, ate, went to the toilet and got changed and now i'm here :) It was so much fun, the first night we ran to the other cabins where all the boys were and stuff. I made heeps of veggie friends, (Grade eights) a couple of which are hot :) One actually, but who's counting =D I'm so surprised'i'm still awake i got 2 hours sleep the first night and about 6 the second night. We'd wake up at 5:30 se we could have showers and stuff. Ugh, the thought of going to school tomorow makes me yawn! Camp was so much better than i thought it would be. I was in a cabin with two of my close friends and we just wandered around to people introducing ourselves (although it wasn't reaaally necessary) and making new friends and stuff. I'm way tired though, i really don't want to go to school tomorow, i'll fall asleep, i really will. *yawn* :) I really did actually yawn just then. EW i have to check my emails now. yuck, too many. At camp it was ridiculous how many people talked about me. I'm not joking it was insane. I'd be walking around or standing talking to a bunch of my friends and i'd here, "Lana". "Yeah, the one in the Hello Kitty top" "Yeah and then Lana....." and it goes on. It was all crap and it wasn't rumours it was just a whole load of nothingness that people felt they had to mention to everyone. It sucks i missed Jes' party. It was crazy hat party, it looked like heaps of fun. I'm gonna head off bye!! and check out the photo on the beach, me and annaleese brooo!

Ugh.

Wooo......camp........>_<>as depressing as being forced to go to music camp.......Compliments clearly only to get in your pants :) I've had it with saucy/kinky compliments. Even the hot, sexy, fit. They aren't heart winners at all, and they are clearly only used for one purpose. The love compliments, or the nicer ones involve words like Beautiful, georgous, stunning, amazing, good looking and even pretty. It's the same with guys aswell, I've found people who are going out, or love eachother, use words like amazing, good looking and beautiful instead of hot and sexy. Their cheap words and quite frankly, slut words. Not necessarily for boys, hot is used quite alot because its the only word used for good-looking guys apart from sexy, fit and a few more. People can at-least be a bit creative with their compliments. The cliche stuff is dead. Guys who use the same lines when saying how they feel about a girl are the boring ones. It all sounds the same and i don't know how someone can find a guy sweet for repeating what Shakespeare wrote in their english class studies, or what a lovestruck singer sang in one of his songs. You can really tell when a guys serious from the way he describes you. Not in a million years would i fall for a guy who said something way cliche to me. I'm gonna head off now. No more blogs for a while, well, till Monday. Music camp.....ugh. It makes me feel sick thinking about it! Good-Byes!xx

Shadow play is a ripe banana.

Today was ok i guess. I'm watching disturbia and its really quite scary :) In a "Oh my god i hope some old guy doesn't live across the road from me and try to kill me. I got a new teacher and after 2 weeks she left us. "Resigned". I Loled :) I think some people I know aren't getting what they deserve, like, I think someone should be famous, with way too many friends on Myspace and Papparazi and girls running after him like a loon. I really do. Anyway, i have to go. Dinner. BYE

and then i turned the page.

Today was really boring. We had "Medieval Day". It wasn't medieval at all. It was just really homosexual :) If i didn't have such odd friends, an open-mind and a camera it would of been really annoying. My mum is pissing me off. She thinks she knows me really well and crap. and now she's kicking me off the computer. Yesterday i went to the city, it wasn't as fun as it could have been but we still got really high and referred to benny hills all the time :) Woohayyy in the bus, thanks to "Sorry i've got no head". I hugged 76 poles that day. I'm so proud of myself ;D Like seriously 76! I was reading the newspaper this afternoon( yes as you do) and yeah, i turned the page and there was something saying (NAME) Is willing and fit. And i found that halarious.......probably would too if you knew the name. But for all i know that person could be following this. I have camp on friday. Icky! Last yoga thing tomorow. God i'm gonna miss yoga hehe, good times. Well, i have to go now :( Toodle pip!!!!

Boredom's company today.

Bored, bored, bored. Daddy dearest is going to the football so we're having fush and chups. Well, i'm not i'm having Oudon and soup :) Yum yum. I'm so tired and i didn't do a thing today. I..........hmm what did i do? Organised an outfit to make certain people squirm with un-easyness. Painted my nails purple. Uhm, it was a complete nothing day. I even forgot to have lunch.Until rach reminded me :) eep. dinner :) bye!

Alice is keeping me awake:)

In quite a literal sense. Radiosong ;D I'm home alone ! and i'm really bored. and and omg, i have PURPLE STOCKINGS! ;DDDDD and and and andddd lipstick =3 which surprisingly suits me, its darkish red but it's quite suttle, it makes me look less pale :) Hey might just wanna sit down when i tell you this honey!! I love radiosong, i think its the best by Alice in Videoland, that and Emily (: Uhm, I need coffee i'm so tired.......Oh, i decided to have a go at the scary theme to one of these groups i joined on bebo, a modelling group. HEY! i WAS asked xD So yeah, i had all my make-up done which looked very scary ^_^ and i freaked my sister out when i got her to take the photo's, but to my dissapointment, turns out she just can NOT take pictures :( I need to get someoe good to take piccy's for me. Even just a friend with an artistic mind. The pictures i take can only get me so far. It'd also be really fun, i love photoshoots, I'm poser =D I'm dying for someone to come on msn right now, everyones probabs having lunch.....>_<" Ohwait, nevermind ;D Mr. Crowley talks to dead people :) I'm gonna.......well i have no clue but i'm out of things to say, oh wait. Uhm, i convinced my mum to let me have her gold rose earings that are like......way old. My great grandma had them. I love them :D They go with like........everything. I think i had the same dream as someone, Its really odd. Not one of THOSE dreams, but it was a weird dream and i think that person had it too. :S My nails match my new stockings :D i gonna go NOW :) BYEEE!!!!

I'm going to miss yoga

Only took it because there were no other electives instead of sport but god its been fun :)

What a strange day.

Today was really odd. Even for me, and i'm used to odd :) First odd thing was: I was in science and i walked into a grade 11 classroom to use the computers for my assignment, and i walked past all these people to get to the spare compy, and this guy was staring at me and bursts out "YOU LOOK LIKE MARY!" and i turned and said "Excuse me?" and he was like ""You know, Virgin Mary,like jesus." Does that make sense to anyone? Honestly, some random telling you you look like Jesus's mum. So yeah, i found that a bit odd. Like, don't get me wrong, I've had some odd comments/compliments in my life. The most expected is either "Is your hair naturally THAT curly!?" or something along those lines, and then there's all the comments on my eyes, but Virgin Mary? Thats just wack. Plus I'm horrible when it comes to accepting compliments because they always confuse me, even if they make sense to everyone else. I think its just my insecurity :) Annnd the second weird thing that happened to me today was, i was standing in the line for tuckshop catching up with some friends i haven't seen in a while and I'm pretty sure i pulled my hamstring. Which doesnt make sense considering i was just standing in a line patiently waiting to get my sushi and iced coffee which really helps to lighten up fridays, expecially after maths and science xD So yeah, i had to get my mum to pick me up after school, i could't even walk like......150 metres down the road home :) I'm literally sitting here in my green skinny's (haha, i'm sorry i couldn't help but add that in, they're dark green =D) with ice on my leg, which is really cold btw. I hope it rains, i love rain. Interesting things happen in rain. I was kissed in rain, dumped in rain, danced in rain and fell in rain. Interesting hay :) I think i'm getting sick, which is horrible because i have a big weekend coming uppp, plus i can't afford to get sick! Not afford as in money but yeah. Music has pretty much taken over my life at the moment. Rehearsals, camps, competitions, concerts, auditions. Over and over my god its insane! Well, i'm going to end it there. P.s I want this phone :) Uber want, NEED it!http://images.play.com/covers/5380298x.jpg!! Oh, and i actually found a replica of the shirt/jumper thing i'm always wearing =D But its in silk and its no-where as cool, mine has more lace,the whole top part of it is lace, so i have to wear a purple singlet under it, more buttons, and its cotton :) Which makes it better.http://www.fanplusfriend.com/catalog/TP00047_01.jpg I also like how the website i found it on calls it elegant, i was like " aww thankyou =D". Ok, now i'm gonna go. I have people i'm determined not to think about. Well a person, but......ohmygod, why am i writing this in a blog!? He could be reading it, omg i bet he is :) HELLO! O_O........I've finally gone insane. My god. Anyway, bye!!!! and remember, I'm Virgin Mary, so don't mess with me :)

yay (: first post.......ever =D

Wellll.........I just made a blog haha, and i have absolutely no idea how to use it :) Well, slightly. I know how to do this, but thats about the extent of my blogging expertise. I'm so bored. School was really boring, i was so tired, and my hpe teacher made me do push ups! For gods sake! So then, sickness overtook me. I think it was a mix of the swine flu and exhastion from the on-going amount of push ups he made me endure. I'm not an animal! I'm a.....teenager. Much worse xD I'm watching Dan in Real Life, its so dark. Well, as dark as a romantic comedy gets. I like it! ^_^
I'll pretty much be blogging whenever, and it will be in random gaps and stuff so yeah. I'm going now, i ran out of interesting things to say :) Au-revoir!!!!