Gotta be quick(:

Mum's kicking me off like right now so the update will have to be uber fast (: I went and spent the day in the city today, got a vaccination. My arm hurts :( It was actually a pretty good day. Holidays are good so far (: Don't know what i'llbe doing tomorow, most likely just spend the day with Mich. Thursday i'm going shopping with Astrid which has been long awaited. It shall be heaps fun.

I wish i could talk longer but i have to go (: More blog tomorow maybe ;D

I love you to death (:

xx.

Did you know??

Did you know that i was a fairy today??
Did you know i'm a vegetarian but apparently i'm un-healthy? (weight wise)
Did you know i can spend half an hour meditating before i need music?? ;D
Did you know i can make 2 minute noodles....in 3 minutes??
Did you know i write my own songs??
Did you know i hate being called baby?
Did you??

Bet you didn't. Because i don't think many people know. Some, i guess.
Explanation to the first - Today was uber fun (: It was the second last day of the semester so all the teacher's are really laid back. Which means WE get away with alot xD I wouldn't push it though, they are still doing reports after all. But yeah, today was just really fun. I was in one of those moods. I talked to everyone and i was always smiling. I wans't high i was just happy. Jeanette had a drama performance and had brought two sets of fairy wings for it and i wore them for half of the day. It was really fun (: I got as many stares as usual so i wasn't bothered at all. We were mansfield fairies, who doesn't want to be a fairy? a fairy with purple fluffy wings i might add :D

Now, i don't know about everyone else but i dont like it when people deny things. I see denial as lying. and when someone lies to me, i see it like i'm not worth the truth. Today for example. I know this guy in my music class likes me. He jumps at any opportunity to talk to me. He's a nice enough guy, nothing special. So i was walking out of music talking to him and he said "Your shorter than i thought you were." and i went up on my tippy toes and said "Oh, so you think about me now??" he didn't answer. If he had the guts to say straight out yes. I might've given him a little credit. Same with guys who like you but don't tell you so. That really bugs me. Admiration from far away. That is the worst. I mean, its great for self esteem and sure, i can't deny i like it when I found out some guy or girl for that matter, likes me. But god its annoying! They just STARE. All the time. Sometimes they talk to me but they just STARE at me when i talk to them. I try to ignore it most of the time, but sometimes it makes me feel like there's a planet on the side of my face or something. Ugh.

Plus i'm a straight-forward, say what you think kind of person. I won't say something if it''s mean or un-necessary, but i say what i think when i want to. I don't like it when people aren't straight up with me too. The truth is always better than i lie. Even if it does hurt. I mean, lies do so much more damage, everyone knows that. In the long run, the truth always ends up being a better option. But yeah of course, if its something serious, i'd follow my brain. Everyone would. Or at least i hope. Not the FBI, they're just sluts. The FBI's are the Fashion Before Intellects (: I nicknamed the idiots in my grade with no thought for anything else but sex, clothes and make-up that. I think it fits.

Although great thing about my school is we don't really have the set groups. We have the self-defined. Of course, we have a slut group. yes, the asians stick together most of the time. and the jocks, naturally, hang out with eachother. But there's groups of kids that are all really different who hang out together, and don't have names for their groups. Thats the one thing i love about my school. Uniqueness is accepted. If people don't accept you then they aren't worth changing for. Can you beleive it took me 13 years to work that out? thats, what.....365 times 13. 4745 days of being alive. Well not ecxactly. but you get the point. It took me so much to work out who i was and what i wanted. I still don't know what i want even now. Meaning: I'm not quite sure what i wanna do when i grow up. I have lots of options. My parents don't realise i'm just trying to keep all my options open and enjoy what i'm doing now. I put the effort in, and hopefully it'll pay off years from now. Hopefully.

Well, speaking of putting the effort in, i need to do 5 minutes of math. My life is so hard isn't it? No. Not compared to some people i know. Poor buggers. Anyway, pip pip! Cheerio! Toodle-ooo.
x.

Howdy do (: Haven't blogged in a while, apoligies to anyone who reads this =D

Well, i have a whole list of excuses for not blogging but i think you can kind of guess.

1. Way to many exams for anyone's liking but i mean lets be honest, who likes exams??
2. So many assignments i think i could make 50 paper aeroplanes with them and fly them halfway to the moon, but there's so much stuff in the assignments they'd fall down!!
3. There is no three, but the other 2 things seemed a bit lonely (:

I didn't do much today, yeah yeah i know its saturday, yeah yeah i know i'm a 13 year old girl with a good amount of friends but.....I had netballllllllllll

and we lost, because hardly anyone in my team shows up, and we always have to get subs and its just not worth it anymore): I used to enjoy netball but not anymore. I guess its the same with alot of things, they change and you grow to hate what you used to love.

and I was going to check out this Vintage shop i found on thursday this morning, but my mum didn't end up taking me because she had an operation on thursday on her back, just a little thingy cut out but yeah, it hurt so she said she'd take me on the holidays. Which i don't mind so much. There was also a slight chance i was going to meet up with my friend ben there, so we could demolish it together (: Which would of been heaps fun for sure.

upside of today is that i've put alot of my song idea's down on paper and some of them sound pretty good. I also got some frawing done after netball and i got lichee juice! and and dark chocolate with orange in it! and (waitt for ittttt).......PRAWN CRACKERS! I've been craving them all week along with cheesecake and chocolate coins so yeah, happy Lana i am ;D

and also a very confused and yeah jsut really confused Lana. I'm not sure who to go about this.........issue, i'm not even sure whether it's an issue. and i can't talk about it on here for obvious reasons. Its just a bit hard keeping to myself sometimes. But it's a habit of mine, one i like to be honest, but it has it's moments. People have discovered that.

I make them GOOD GIRLS GO BAD.
I make them good girls go, the good girls go
BAD!!

Cobra starship is awesome for sures (:

So yeah, my brain just has alot to handle at the moment, and sadly, i don't think it can take it all right now. One more week and i'll be on holidays, and my dad will still be at work on weekdays which means my mum, brother, sister and I will pretty much be able to do whatever we want. its not that my dad doesn't let us do things, he's just pretty protective of me when it comes to going places and who i'm with. I know its because he cares. but yeah, party next week. Plus my brother, sister and dad are going skiing for 5 days during the holidays (I'm not going just because, i don't really enjoy skiing, i would rather stay at home with mummy dearest and do whatever i like!!) So yeah holidays will be fun. And it'll give me a chance to take a break from all this WORK! which means i won't be so stressed and i won't have so much packed into my brain. i'm not dumb, i just don't like all these thoughts running through my head.

Well my dad's home which means i'll be having dinner, I promise i'll be blogging a bit more (: Promise.

But a smile on your dile, i'll see you in a little while!
Goodbye for today! I'll see you again :D
x.

Hmphh.......

I'm numbish right now. I played netball today. I don't like netball(: I have absolutely nothing against people who play it and i see how they like it. But personally......i hate it :) It gets me up before 10 oclock on a saturday! THATS FRICKEN SUICIDE!!!

and uhm yeah, i didn't get back till about 3 and then i ran over to Michy's to film a ditsy video xD You can find it on utube called "Ditsy0001". It is extreamely random.

I also made.....*Duh duh duh duhDUNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* NERD GLASSES *scream from some random lady reading over my shoulder. (:

They're big and nerdy and ohmygosh BLACK! and haha, they have no lenses ;D

My father is coming home in about 5 minutes.....yippee-yi-yay. >_> So i better go.....

Bye!!!!!!!!
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x.

This is me not doing my maths revision

I haves a maths test tomorow :( I really hate maths, like really really really times 8MILLION don't like maths. Its not all that bad though, i mean i sit here and NOT do my maths revision, do it for about 15 minutes and then get japanese takeaway for dinners! See, my dad is out until saturday, which means PARTAYYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAAYYYYH (haha, why did i put a H on the end of partayayayayayaya? Because i can thats why, plus that H button, my god does it look inviting!!)

I haven't blogged in a while, nothing new to say really. I mean i can always talk about garbage but whats the fun in that when i can be conguring up little evil plans with my friend Jeanette? I had H.p.e today with that darling and my friend Jess. It was so cold we went round and hugged everyone we knew, and everyone we didn't know too. Haha basically just anyone within a 50 metre radius. I say 50 because when its that cold, hun, i don't mind running 50 metres for warmth. I'm always in the sped team for phys ed. It doesn't bother me at all because i know i can do sport if i bothered to morph some abs and some muscley man legs, but tbh, why would i spend an hour of my time running around, completely exhasting myself before Com tech ( and beleive me, you need ALL the energy you have in com tech to stay awake x] ) when i can just run around like a nutter on nico pens with my friends? I see that as a fun way of wasting my time =D

I decided to space myself from my group. They really are a bore, and i'm not joking at all. Jess (Different one to the one i ran around with in h.p.e) is quite literally the only person there i'm close too, all the other people there are guys apart from Caitlin, long story short, i think she's a twat and she thinks i'm an emo. Makes sense :) and the guys there, there's about 9 of them? They're SO IMMATURE! Two of them are okay, but the rest of them are patheticly immature! and i'm not immature. Sped - yes. Werid - of course. In-conveniently high at most times of the day - yes. But i'm not immature! so i spent first break on the grass area with 4 of my lovely friends from a different group, and second break with a different bunch of people i haven't been with in a while.

Thing about me is, and not many people can do this without feeling out of place, i can wander from about 5 different groups without feeling like i don't belong. The stupid thing is, i was spending time with a group I feel completely out of place with, and i'm not quite sure why i was doing this but i was walking towards where i normally sit and kind of just turned around and went "Ok so who do i feel like being with right now?" I missed Jess today though :( (The one in the group that isn't mine anymore (: )

I had another person comment on my eyes today. Haha well 5 actually. People always do it. They say something about how blue my eyes are, or how big they are. I don't see it (haha with my apparently big blue shining eyes). Maybe its just because i've been seeing myself in the mirror more than once everyday for 13 years, but i just can't comprehend why people find me eyes and my hair such a big deal! My hair, sometimes it gets beyond a joke. 'Specially when i'm in a bad mood and some random asks me whether my hair is natural. I'm used to it now. Its like natural reflex to go "Yeah it is *fake smile*" or "haha thanks (:" I think people with boring hair are lucky sometimes, not boring but you know, straight? and just the normal layeres and side fringe, they don't get as much hassle from society in general. Its not a bad thing its just a bit too much, 'especials when i'm moody haha (:

I'm really pale today. Death pale. Death warmed up with a tiny pink bow (: Thats me! Whenevers i get my period, or i'm a bit low on sleep, i get really really pale and it freaks my mum out because she thinks i don't get enough iron, so i have foundation on today >_< I don't like it, its annoying when its un-necessary, because i'm one of those kids who doesn't get many pimples (: Yay me! although i do have this one i think is waiting to happen on the side of my cheeck.......but then again my hair covers it ehehehehehehehehehehe. So yeah, foundation face! Wooooo!

It's so weird being home alone on a Thursday afternoon! its nearly dark, which is odd for me because normally its still light around now, but winter is clearly setting in. Cause as i told you, my dad isn't here and my mum took my brother and my sister to garbo to shop for shoes. She tried to get me to come, she said we'd go to the library after and then have dinner there, which was like saying "Hey Lana, want to walk around the shops for 3 hours and then be rushed to chose books and get sushi stuck in your braces?" NO THANKYOU.

I better go try and get some of those stupid revision revised.....baii baii!!
xx.
(:

A wintery sky and a broken streetlight.

I went bowling today (: It was fun. Apart from the fact i couldn't shake the feeling i'm a bit too deep to get out now.....damn....maybe it isn't a bad thing :S

I'm really bored and i'm not quite sure how to feel about things right now. I'm too confused and i dont know, i dont knoww!

I dont want to think about it it's kind of hard though but....

Iwon'tthinkaboutit
Iwon'tthinkaboutit
Iwon'tthinkaboutit
Iwon'tthinkaboutit

Shit, who am i kidding? I'm going to go before i waste more of my time talking about something i obviously can't get out of my head.

Weel its saturday and i'm bored outta my brain!

But i have this stupid smile i can't seem to wipe off my face (: Argh, i'm getting that feeling again uhuhuhuhhh:( but its so much different. Its not that silly falling feeling it's like. I can't explain it its too hard. I don't even care where its going i'm just happy.

I found a whole bunch of great songs today (: The power of ootube xD Wahh i think i'm falling in love ahhhhhhh:( I don't want to but...

He just........oh god haha crap i really am falling.......ahhhshet(:

I dunwannathinkaboutit!

I'm really bored, i'm all home along because my brother has a soccer carnival and mum took him and my sister is at a friends ughh.

ahh dad's home bye!!

Before i get carried away with everything i can do on the computer i'll blog!!

Haha yesterday i did a terrible thing. I opened up the blog thing and had it sitting on the new post page until i had to get off. And i'm determined to actually post today. I have lots to blab on about :) Well winters finally set in which means cute skirts, knee highs and scarfs! WOOO! I'm wearing a scarf now actually (: Those things don't do much but they're so cute xD

The other day i was talking to my friend about how yesterday this girl in grade 12 who i have no clue who she is touched my hair and walked off as i turned around and i heard he friend go "Do you even know her??" and she replied "No, but i love her hair i just had to touch it!!" Now i don't know about your opinion on things like this but i absolutely hate it when people touch my hair. Expecially when they don't ask. I mean, yes it is very curly but SERIOUSLY!! I alwyas get the "Is your hair naturally that curly!?" questions and when i was little, i had really blonde hair, and it was long too, so it'd go into these really tight wringlets and whenever we went somehwhere with tourists they'd get pictures with me. Expecially the asians cos i mean, they have straight black hair and mine was really light blonda long and curly. The idea of turning up in people's photo's as a three year old when they went ot australia makes me laugh (:

and my friend said how i must despise meeting new people because of the amount of inquiries i get on my hair. I'm used to it but i can't stand it when people touch my hair without asking. Thats pretty much assault to me (:

Well, i have to go and i admit, yes, i did get carried away on picnik but its not my fault they have the cutest little cartoon things!! haha dinner now. BYe!!!!

Wow, i'm nearly normal

I spent this afternoon doing such teenage things. I.....(omg get ready......).........Drew a picture. (:

It's just another one of my anime people xD I haven't drawn in a while and i guess one of my friends kind of inspired me to get back into it again when i saw his art book. Amazing.

I spent the weekend doing things with friends. I slept over Michy's house and went to my friend Rach's where we met up with our friend Ben and yeah.

Not too much information about that because i don't know who reads this (:

I'm going to go because i have to do so much stuff on the compy and i'll never get it done if i blog for long.

Look at the piccy (:

xx