Today i finished Naplan!! yayy......ugh, i'm so so so i don't even know how to put how i feel into words, thats how i feel :) Nothing kind of. Another one of my friends is hurt by a a guy, by a relationship. Thats why i get scared, after a scarring from a stupid relationship and now i just, don't want to go through it :S No, i'm not all "Ï don;t want love its not for me" i just don't want to be like how i was before, and i've seen all the side effects of heartbreak and its pretty bad. She's recounting what happened now. It's really, i dont know its just. I don't want ot have to go through all of that. I want to just find the guy i'm meant to be with and skip all the shit i'll have to go through to find him. But i've found i hold back myself now, most don't even know me. Bleh, i'm really worried about her :S I wish i could give hugs over msn, stupid stupid messenger.
A less depressing topic perhaps? I'm growing my hairr! and its taking so longggg, but it'll look great when i finally get it the length i want, because its so curly it'll be like how i had it when i was younger. I had a little side fringe that amazingly was straight! It curved out a bit at the end, but i think it looked better like that. and i had my hair down to the end of my ribs, which is a ridiculous length when your young and small and have huge wringlety locks of hair. It'd go into wringlets at the bottom and it was just really cute. But then i got it cut because it was too much to handle and i had it mid-length for a while and THEN i got it cut to where i have it now, which suits me alot more than mid-length, because i find with me, i look alot different with different hair styles. Some make me look completely different its pretty weird, and i find some other people have hair that looks the same no matter what they do with it. So yeah, i find it'll take ages to grow though, because its so darn CURLY! Straight hair doesn't suit me :) I've been asked so many times weather i've straightened my hair and i have. I wanted a straightener once upon a time. But it just looked really boring on me, not to mention it didn't curve round my face like my curls do, it just went straight down, it looked terrible. Some people look great with straight hair but i'm just not one of them :) Which isn't such a bad thing, considering all the people who want to "steal" my hair. and my eyes. Oh god, i'm going ot turn out like a hairless blind old lady! With an interesting in crocheing and geography teachers! Ahhh!!!
Well, thats better, i'm not so caught up in my friends unfortunatism now :)
I can really relate to one of Chase Coy's songs. Most of them are a loud of bullshit, him singing about some girl and blah blah blah, theres one song he has called Coming Clean. and one line freaks me out at how much it was pretty much written for me. It goes "I'm so lonely, surrounded by people that know me but don't know a thing". Haha i listened to it in english when i was doing my darn poetry assignment which i'm not getting enought time to do, and i was like oh wow. Crap! I might use Evanescence - Missing for my assignment xD because its about death and loss and stuff, and i have to annalyse 3 poems and do a powerpoint about them. And missing is a really sad song about loss. I love that song. Because she said it has to relate to the poems or the discourse i was like aww man! but still, its surprising how many songs about loss i have considering how cheery i am.
I'm way contradicting myself when i said i have nothing interesting to say. That was a lie, a half one. I have stuff to say, but its all a load of garbage! =D Naplan is so boring, i have this guy who's in my band who sits diagonally infront of me and he finished 15 minutes early and just stares at me. I wanted to give him the finger but my principal walked past >_<" !! He really scares me and he's part of the reason i didn't go to band this morning.......that and the fact that "My braces hurt......>.>" He tries to talk to me while we're playing and even the teacher sympathises my position!! She let me move, but now he turns around and talks to me. I don't think he's caught the drift.
I hate sympathy. Some people like it when people can empathise how they feel and stuff but not me. It always makes me feel worse than i already do. It points out how badly off i am when someone sympathises to me about something. It just makes me mad. I'm not the kind of person who is all about independence, i rely on people alot more than they know sometimes, but i just don't like it when people talk to me like i'm a 6 year old who's lost her favourite teddy.Cartel has such a great voice, whenever i listen to his songs i feel like writing a huge letter to a fansite about him about how great his music is :) Same with Chris Ingle from Never Shout Never. He's so hot too hehe.
Grr, the guy in my h.p.e class who looks like Asagi wasn't here today so i couldn't ask him if he's aware he looks like a clone of Asagi that was shoved into a preservation device? Shame he isn't very talkative. and he's one of those kids who sticks to his friends, and his nationality for that matter. Big shame. He seems like a nice kid. I love embarassing him, i'll see him somewhere and yell out his name with a big grin on my face and smile and he just gives me a small smile and a nod of the head. Eh, i won't give up, i never give up on trying to get to know someone. It tends to either get me what i want, or i fail epically and they walk faster when i try to talk to them.
I'm a bit of a "make friends with anyone" kind of person. If they aren't a bitch to me or if they aren't obviously a douche then i just introduce myself to them and yeah. Camp was funneh, i met at least 30 people in the same kind of way. I was high, they were there, i said Hi and they remembered me. There WAS those two guys who sat opposite the table of people i sat with and gave me looks, so i got some of my friends to give them looks back. Now we're good friends haha. It was all just messing around but it got pretty halarious. One night i was sitting on my own in the hall on with my legs across a bunch of chairs and a pillow (the talent show was going to happen in about 10 minutes) an a bunch of my friends had gone to the toilet, and they came and sat next to me and started moving closer to me and stuff, so i shoved my pillow in-between the little space left between us and walked off :) I got them back when we had a snack before dinner. I ended up being quite good friends with some of the kids i met at camp actually. I sat with them on the way back from camp on the bus and stuff, snuck into their cabin at like 3 in the morning with some friends. Fun stuff haha. I think this is the biggest blog i've done so far! WOOOO for me!!! ;DDDDD
I'm gonna head off now, i can't think of anything else to rant about at the moment. I'm sure i'll be on tomorow with a whole other heap of rubbish to go on about !!! Bye for now!! and remember, i love you :) (whoever you is hahaha) x3
About Me
- Lanah(:
- I'm 13? It's really difficult to sum me up. I love my music and i play by ear, so i often teach myself songs and write my own aswell. I listen to heaps of different genre's of music. I'm an art freak and i draw alot. I love my friends but I'm not territorial and i have friends of all different types :) I'm quite a nice person if you get to know me, but to be completely honest, not very many people really KNOW me. Heaps know OF me and are my friend, but there's only a few i open up to. I guess thats just how i've always been, i find its easier not to like people too much, less chance of being torn up when or if they leave. I'm a really outgoing, confident and slightly insane girl and i really don't get that bothered about what tomorow will bring. I'm a vegetarian and i love animals. I'm a book nerd and i can sit for hours reading a good book. I also love anime and i think its so much better than those bland cartoons on t.v nowdays :) That's basically all i can be bothered to type about myself right now. :)